FAQ#2

          People says "don't mock others", right. Who knows if that thing we mocked about, could happen to us, or our children. My dad was a teacher (he's retired now), so he's kinda strict when teaching how to read Al-Quran.. he often scold people who couldn't pronounce a certain letter correctly. For example, the Arabic letter 'ra' and 'gha'. So once (or perhaps many times behind his back), his pupils say 'you just see.. you'd know how hard it is if your own kids have that difficulty too'.

          So it happens. My dad's kids (us!) got it. But the weird thing is not all of us have it: only most of the male siblings (my brothers), and I got it. (haha yeah I was the only girl sibling who got it. what luck T_T) I had it bad until I was 15 years old. Then because I was so sick of getting picked and teased on this pesky, petty thing, I started brushing my tongue everytime I brush my teeth, and soon when I transferred to a new school the next year, I just got better.. People could hardly tell I couldn't say the letter 'R' before.
Things just happen the way it did, so I'm just glad I got better =)) ..as i myself have had this hardship before, that gives me the right to brag about it, and mock others who cannot say 'R' correctly, right? XDD

FAQ#1

hellooo =))

The FAQ above means Family's Answers&Questions, not some random Frequently Asked Questions.. yeah sorry i just love puns ^^;

so let's start this!

My side of the family calls my dad "abah".

The step-family calls him "ayah".

Even among the siblings including the step-sisters, I am the youngest.

But I refer to myself as just "Yah", or "saya".

The youngest step-sister, who's born in the same year as my older sister immediately above me, calls herself "adik".

#16

I think I'm psychic. not psycho, psychic.

My instinct's pretty good, too. You ever stuck on a multiple choice question, having no idea which one's the answer? My likeliness to get the answer right is more than 70%. Awesome, right. I know.

places to see

some places i wanna come see:

1. Malaysia (terengganu: pulau kapas, perhentian, redang. pahang: pulau tioman. johor: marine national park)
2. the Borneo (sabah, sarawak, brunei)
3. indonesia (bali, java)
4. thailand (the markets, just riding a bike or shopping)
5. japan (tokyo, yokohama, hot spring and snow in sapporo, okinawa)
6. the caribbean sea (esp. the greek islands)
7. ireland (the dewy greens! the castles! the faerys!)
8. australia (adelaide, shopping in melbourne, perth, the capital sydney, great barrier reef)
9. brazil (rio de janeiro, amazon)
10. africa (the great pyramid of giza in egypt)
11. the wonders of the worlds (hanging gardens of babylon, the great wall of china, stonehenge, taj mahal, machu picchu in peru, potala palace and everest in tibet)

place i've visited:

1. Malaysia (langkawi, pulau kukup, penang, port dickson, teluk cempedak, pantai cahaya bulan, kota tinggi, genting highlands)
2. USA (new york, washington DC, orlando florida, smoky mountain, nashville)
3. canada (ottawa, toronto)
4. europe (eiffel tower in paris, barcelona, madrid, cordoba, colosseum in rome, gondola in venice, pisa, amsterdam, munich, london)

sigh if only i have this limitless funds for travelling purposes...

The Third Base

http://www.explosm.net/comics/1963/

          Last time, I talked about "untainted women" and career women, so going along with similar social issues: What do unmarried Muslim Malaysian ladies think about holding hands, kissing, (and God-forbid this) out-of-wedlock sex? I've always thought and saw they go up to the holding hands base, but have never witnessed the other two. So before, I just assumed that they indeed keep it at just holding hands, not more than that. Sometimes I read it in newspapers or magazines, or watched some news and TV programs, and they said that Muslim teenagers/ young adults in Malaysia nowadays are more casual about sex. They're seen while kissing and making out in public. But then again, I have always perceived that as a faraway-phenomenon; something other-worldly, committed by some strangers, and perhaps only a minority of us (Muslim Malaysians) do that. There's also a lot of babies being born out of wedlock, and it makes me do a re-take of this whole situation: usually you have to have sex to make babies, so that means if there's that many out-of-wedlock babies out there, then that amount equals to how many people have sex out of wedlock?

          The same goes with the Muslim drinking alcohol issue. I have always assume that the Muslims around me or whom I know, do not drink, despite the rumors saying that some Malaysian Muslims do drink. Reality never dawns on me before; was I being too naive, choosing to turn a blind eye away and believe in whatever good is left in people? And by doing so, am I forcing my ideals on people?
          I'm not  preaching. I just want to know what's considered 'the norm' right now. Is it 'normal' for a Muslim couple to be doing the 1st, 2nd, or even the 3rd base?

p/s: I'm not asking if it's right or wrong, because I know, and you know, that it is wrong. I'm just asking is it 'normal'?

#15

I'm a sucker for brotherhood/male-bonding. like in heroic stories or shounens or whatever that has this touching bro-moments, i'll definitely get touched.. sometimes i even cried lolol

dont know why.. i guess it's just something enviable and I can definitely appreciate a strong bond between people.

told 'ya.. [Prologue to EuroTrip Drama]

          aku dah kate dah aku ni bernasib baik. aku nak tunggu lame2 baru nak beli tiket flight, ko(rang?) bising2 cakap ridiculous lah ape lah, naik twitter ye? nanti ko aku kutuk ko banyak2 kat twitter aku pulak..kat blog dah x terkire dah banyaknye hahahh. then x percaye pulak tu aku cakap aku pergi, aku pergi lah. ape masalahnye belikan semua tiket2/pas2 tu untuk semua orang terus? bukan aku nak keling back-off dari plan tu pon.
          sebab orang2 ni pon dah pressure sangat, aku pon OK, aku beli sekarang. puas hati? aku tgh tunggu funds dari akak aku bagi duit kitorang bisnes2 before ni sebenarnye..kalo boleh x nak la pinjam dekat seriboo dari bell. lepas tu sampai hari terbang, hambik ko flights semue banyak delayed, cancelled sebab snow. diorang time tu dah 'terlepas' kat NY, aku masih selamat kat Nashville, alhamdulillah. pening sikit sebab kena cari alternative plans sorang2, tapi xpe i'll manage it somehow. dorang stay sekejap kat NY, jln2, aku lepak sini lagi, kerja tambah duit hahahaha. dekat NY kena tukar2 flight, book hotel, taxi fares, tiket subway semua pakai duit lagi.. last2 aku cancel jugak tiket flight yang beli sebab diorang dulu tu, lepas tu kena beli tiket lain yang terus ke Paris pulak. same je kalau aku beli last2 minute.

          mule2 aku ingat rugi jugak belik lambat2 sebab dorang beli tiket 830(?..lbih kurang lah), aku beli 940..110 hinggit (usd sbnrnye) rugi. tapi lepas kira2 balik, dorang kena bayar tempat2 kat NY tu sorang $80 kot, so dorang belanje sekarang 910, aku 940. lepas tu dari London-Paris, dorang naik bas ekspres, 40pounds..lbih kurang 70usd kot. now dorang: 980, aku:940. tapi cuak time ni sebab cancel ticket flight biasenye x dapat full refund.. ade cancellation fee 200-300usd. so nanti aku rugi lah 200 kan. tapi aku bantai je beli jugak tiket baru, sebab kalau x memang x sempatlah nak catch up dengan plan. so beli tiket baru 900usd. gila kan, dorang:980, aku:1840. 2 kali ganda hambik ko. aku file refund request, letak ayat cam bagus je.. putar belit policy die sikit, lepas tu doa je lah banyak2 dapat full refund. and what do you know, dapat!! (dapat2 tu je, terus aku syukur gila2 ah, mati aku kalo x hutang beriban kat bell hihi) so sekarang dorang:980, aku:900. yuhuu =Dvv LAGI, aku mintak refund untuk tiket bas London-Paris, dapat ah 75% refund, 50usd. (mule2 dorang nak bagi 25%-50% refund je, aku cakap mane boleh! aku dah try contact dorang separuh mati untuk cancel tiket, dorang yang x angkat telefon, aku nak full refund! tapi memang x ade full refund; dalam policy dorang, paling banyak 75%) so NOW dorang:980, aku:850. keke. (muke bangge)
          ye, aku memang nampak macam ni..nampak macam x boleh percaye sangat kan, x nampak independent. tapi bile dah sorang2 tu, campak jelah kat mane2 pon, aku hidup je. thanks for your concerns and unwanted worries anyway. unfortunately for you, i'll live.

p/s: serius aku mungkin berdarah diraja. ade dolat duh..either bapak aku keturunan sultan ke parameswara ke (darah jawa dah ade dah keke) atau mak aku keturunan puteri hang li po.. maharaja cina datang berlayar ke haha

I'M SHOUTING ACROSS THE INTERNET!!1 CAN YOU HEAR ME?

Some Cracks for Today:
HOW DO I TURN OFF CAPSLOCK?

ANS: NO! YOU SIMPLY CAN'T DO IT. IT'S STUCK FOREVERRR

THIS CAN NEVER GETS OLD =))

what a woman is

(baiklah cikna yah tulis ejaan penuh lagi baku, sakit mata lagi tak baca?)

"nak cari 'perempuan yang belum tercemar' sekarang memang susah"

(orang katalah, aku mana tahu -tak pernah pula aku nak tanya sorang-sorang dah dicemarkan ke belum.) Dalam artikel ni (klik link untuk baca), memang lah bagus dia puji budaya Maghribi masih tak terpesong dengan budaya barat.. how Maghribi women are still 'pure, untainted'. But the way they said it, i feel like it belittles a woman's value. I myself am a conservative girl (or some people would call it 'kampung'). So I understand why men would want 'good girls' as their wives. I acknowledge how they praised them Maghribian girls; like how they watched what they eat, hygienic natures, and some other healthy, beneficial habits.
          But at some point of the story, they commented that these girls were good, obedient girls such that when a guy likes her, he just need to go ask for her hand in marriage from her parents only, then if the parents agree to it, she'll just nod her pretty head and be the forever obedient wife of that man. Also there's this one remark i found very demeaning of a woman's value: "she doesn't have a career (professional/job path) or a mean to get one, so she'll devote her entirety for the husband's sake and well-being". Tell me, what year is it now? I mean, come on. Of course i know that the courting procedures mentioned just now is the correct one by Islam, and i'm not saying anything bad about it. and it is a wife's duty to keep her husband's well-being.
          BUT.
          Since well before, since our prophet's days, women play more than just the home-maker roles. Say, what about Siti Khadijah? Wasn't she his first wife, and that she's also managing a very prosperous business? Sebab aku pun jahil bab-bab sirah dan sejarah, sila google sendiri untuk contoh lain. (haha ok sorry aku fail bab-bab sirah macam ni)

fruit with attitude

dalam banyak-banyak buah, buah apa yang ada 'perangai' (attitude) sikit?

what fruit has an 'attitude'?

Ans: DUH-rian.

get it?

PIMPIN' it

JUST.

THIS.

#14

I'm rebellious.

If you say A, I'll do my damnedest to make it not A.

Example: maman said "an 'infatuation' is 'liking' something / someone for a period of time, usually not 'love', and lasts for only about 18 months".

So I made sure I liked that infatuation for more than 18 months.

Also, I cannot, and will not ignore a dare.

My big ego won't let me.

#12

I'm a narcissist♛ I care more about me than the rest of the world. So when I say I don't do gossips, it's not that I don't love hearing gossips, it's just that I don't particularly put more interest on other people's lives than my own. Logics: less time for others --> more time for myself!! Self-centric and egoistic is the way of the gheiis.. remember that well, my young padawans =))

LOLOMGBLOGGG

haihh aku mmg x bole blah ah org bjet bgus, bjet tau sume ni. pstu klo kte ckp psl someone, then die ni bjet tau, knal org tu luar-dalam. mcm die rapat, knal, tau sume lah psl org tu, mcm xde org lain selain die lg tau. org sume ade opinion msing2, so SHUT THE FUCK UP .i've been there, done that. AND I HATE THAT ME EVERY FUCKING MINUTE I WAS LIKE THAT. aku rse cm aku mcm a scheming bitch time tu. so i stopped, or am now trying to stop being that jerk. spe suke org mcm tu. am i more likable now? lol.

beware!
sarjan misai is looking at you
with his own two eyes, ppl

lg, aku x phm btol apsal org sbok critic blog org. biar a blog die, skati die ah. x suke, jgn bce. pe susah. bkn tu ke pon motif (most) people blog? nk cte psl hdop die, nk mntk pndpt, nk kongsi mcm2 lah; cerita, nasihat, tips, masak2 pon boleh share recipes! tp dh klo ade org sbok mcm nk jd pak guard tlg pantau ape yg patut n x patut di blogkan, susah ni ade sarjan x brgaji. i thought that 'flag this blog' feature is enough to be the judge of what can and cannot be blogged.

ye, ni bkn psl aku. sbb aku x kesah org ckp ape, sbb mmg aku ade mslh ego skit, n ckp lah psl ape, msti nnt topik tu aku balikkn balik kt aku. mcm skrg ni haha. bebel2 pstu smpai balik kt aku lg. yes i'm a narcissist. tp at least skrg ni klo org x mntk pndpt aku, aku xde ah bz body sgt mnyampuk dlm hdup org lain. get a life; your own life.

the detached attachment

          Last summer, on a beautiful sunny day where breeze blew and birds chirped, I picked up a tiny bundle of joy. Six months passed, and he grew up handsomely (and big!). Raising him, of course I love him, but something other than that grew too; attachment. He likes to be near and cuddle with me, even when I was sleeping, studying, trying to go out, everything. Maybe he saw me as a replacement mother, for he was separated from his true mother at a very young age. I even fed him milk with bottle and nipple. Imagine taking care of him for 6 months, watching over him every single day, and being with him every single time, you can't help but getting attached. Even if you're thrown into living with a crocodile for a long, long time, you'd get attached and used to having it near you; you'll adapt to live with it. Now try imagining living with a cute, cuddly furrball. Wouldn't you'll get very attached to him?
          My sister said this: 'even with our many nephews and nieces, you'll feel differently about the ones you helped take care of.' Of course we love them all, but there's just this other-worldly feelings that you just can't compare to; special to the ones you brought up with your own hands. There's a mix of pride, joy, care, love, and many other happy, strong emotions.

Having him for so long, and then losing him, I certainly would need getting use to this new life without him. Goodbye my beloved, and even with my temperamental natures, know that you're loved.

OldCrush: An Inspiring Person ♛

org cte psl bf (hi dayah papatt =P), ko baru sebok dgn crush je. crush lme pulak tu haha gle tertinggal flight ko yah T_T duh. whateverrrr
So. Anyway.
          My first. real. serious. crush♛. happened when I was 16.3 years old. I was in upper forms of high school. couples are everywhere despite the teachers' 'NO!' to couplings lol. At first I didn't have any apple in my eyes (yes, that was intentional), but near the end of the first year, I found him♛.  To be more precise, he found me. I phrased it like that because he's the one who started talking to me first; I didn't even know of his existence, let alone speak to him before that. yeah I've always been like this.. not giving a damn about others except for a few people around me. I'd recognize some familiar faces, but remembering/knowing names might be too hard for me haha
          Then I started to get interested because he dared talk to me despite me giving people the cold attitude. I found out he's always been around some friends of mine, it's just that I totally didn't notice him. Like, he's actually in the same homeroom as my close friend, and he's a roommate of a classmate, or that he's in the same sports house. haha after some stalking (it's not that serious, i just looked around for him, and listened to any mention of him by other people, etc. etc.) I noted that although he's not quite a bishounen, he's kinda cute. He's taller than me (at least =p), got short hair (i can never stand a long-haired-dude), and wore glasses (megane-kun!! hahahh). At that point of time, I was thinking that I might like him, but not more than that; no serious admiration or anything.
          One day, I heard this beautiful azan calling from the musollah. I asked around, and what do you know, it was him alright. His 'admiration points' went up, up. I don't know if I ever loved him, but I definitely loved his voice♛. A few months after that, there was the final exam for that year, and there's an English essay question. sorry I can't remember what the question exactly was. No one knew this (except my girl-friends inside our gang), but I wrote a love story inspired by him. Really, it was easier than a piece of cake. While everybody else is rummaging through their brains thinking hard about some characters and plot and what-nots, I just think about him, and words came out. just like that. I wrote a full paragraph only describing him, and it took me like mere seconds. Then I imagined if he and I were indeed the main characters of a love story, and the story came so naturally.
          I wrote with speed and cheese, and by the end of that 1 hour and 15 minutes, my fingers were sweaty and cold, but my face was hot♛. I don't know if my face was blushing red or not, but I remember feeling with my hands, and it was hot like feverish-hot. And I just had this sense of satisfaction and self-accomplishment. I felt good. =D
          Early the following year, after we got back from the end-of-year holiday, my story got picked by our English teacher as an exemplary essay, and what do you know, each student got a copy of it. way to go, my love letter. thank god i didn't put any names in the story ^^; Then some of the girls in my class said how unfair that I can write that cheesy stuff without trying hard, that she had to really think and plan a story to make it touching, whereas I just wrote heartfelt stuffs like it was nothing. How can I wrote that kinda stuff without even feeling it? yeah, about that not feeling it thing, sorry that I lied and made it seems that way to you. that was a 100% my confession on a paper, and it got photocopied and spread to the whole batch, so of course I had to lie and said it was nothing. I was merely trying to keep my cool, man. I'm proud that my work's set as an example, but it's a bit embarrassing, after all. =P

Dear Encik ♛, Thank You for inspiring one of the better essays I've wrote in my entire life. I guess if you really put your heart into something, people can truly feel it too ♥.

#13

     I am quite the vengeful type. no matter in non-personal matters, relationships, or friendship, once i feel wronged, i'd pay back in ten-folds. misusing my quite good memory, i can still remember who did what to me from around 10 years ago.
     for example, my parents never once slapped or hit my face, so i really am sensitive about that, and even when sparring, i don't hit people's face. that's me being respectful towards others. so really some people just dont know to treat others equally or respect them. i even have a list of people who had hit my face, and unless they specifically said to me "sorry for hitting your face, hit me back" i wont forgive them.
     i rarely feel jealous even if i kinda "like" a guy. even if he found a girl and date her, i'd be like 'okayy' and that'll be the end of it. maybe it's because (ju said this) i just like to look at him, not more than that, or maybe i just don't like him enough to get jealous, i just don't. well i dont get mad, i get even.
p/s: 'head' is different than 'face'. i don't mind being hit on the head, just not the face. a hit on the head is like a pat. "yosh, yosh, good boy" like that =p
p/p/s: i'm not your spare-tyre, and two can play the game, bitch.

#11

I have a glasses fetish.
Guys who I think is handsome without glasses, but hotter with a pair:

okay, they're handsome the way they are, but.

wearing that pair of glasses just add some extra edge to them

dah a my GenChem lab TA muke mcm chester!! srsly =3

real-life or manga/anime, hot guys are hott XDD

megane bishie!! haha

seriously, i don't even need to google these images up; i got them all stored and saved in my laptop =P I even like to dress myself up with one. (note that these pictures are 4 years old, they were taken during my freshman year, muke freshie habis ah haha)

naah. i'm just messing around, i'm not that yellow =P

being near/far-sighted is quite troublesome; you'd have to wear a pair of glasses and feel all 'restricted' around your eyes, or put on contact lenses, which i know is a hassle. you have to buy them, and that's more money out of your pocket, and you'll have to be careful with the products you put on your eyes because it's such a sensitive area. i'm just glad my eyesight is not that bad, if any. but having a glasses fetish is a whole different thing right.

long-due haircut

          traveling with long hair is a no-no for me. it takes a lot of time to dry, and gets easily tangled up. so i've been wanting and needing a haircut ever since i came back from winter break trip last month. as i was too lazy to ask another friend to help me cut my hair, and lazier to go out to a salon, i took matters in my own hands, literally. equipped with a pair of scissors, a couple of talented hands, and a bucket-load of guts mixed with desperation, zip, zip, and zip i went.
          first i tied my hair, and cut it all a few inches past my ears. then i cut the front parts; leaving kinda some fringe. next i trimmed some uneven length hair from the back, and tidy up the fringe. i'm not too into long fringe, so i styled my hair all to the back. the shorter length front hair gives an overall lighter feel.

if cutting own hair is as easy as giving an anime character a hairstyle, i'll probably try out all this crazy hairstyles i found. but yeah, reality check is a bummer T_T

if you're an anime character, or someone who just has this awesome hairstylist, which haircut would you rock?

kuih burger Malaysia

hari ni konon start tak makan malam. buat lilyslim konon bagi motivation untuk taruskan usaha. (tengok sidebar, siap ade gambar kecik dari model simulator dengan tinggi dan berat target.) lepas buat tu, tiba2 bau orang masak dari dapur.. bihun goreng. takpe, tahan sekejap boleh buat breakfast esok. bau2 tumis tu teringat kuih burger malaysia pulak. siape tak tau kuih burger malaysia tu camne?

I usually mistake this with kuih bom =p

mengidam. gila betul tiba2 je, mane nak dapat kan. so tahan lagi. konon selamat lagi 'azam' kali ni. pastu dayah papatt ym pulak, cakap die ade bake carrot cake. perghh. x boleh jadi ni. banyak betul dugaan.

10 minit lepas tu.

ye sudah selamat membaham kek tersebut.
sekian.

world is mine

recently i found about the vocaloids; it's an application that uses computer algorithm to synthesize human voice. see how far our robotics technology have come to. and to attract younger generations, they made it into young adults and teen-aged vocaloids. I'm sure there are more, but I've only heard some songs by Ren and Kaito (boy type), and Rin and Miku (girl type).
the boy says

the girl says

then the girl says

then the guy says