Bersukan bersama keluarga

My nephew on my current relationship status:

"Nenek, cik yah tu kenapa tak kahwin lagi?"

"Entahlah, tanya la dia sendiri"

"Tapi tak apelah nenek, biar la cik yah kahwin lambat-lambat. Tak best la kalau cik yah dah kahwin, nanti tak boleh main badminton dengan kita orang lagi..."

"Kan boleh main sekali dengan laki dia"

"Umm tak best. Nak main dengan cik yah"

Err hello boleh belajar smash dengan beliau nanti ok hahhah

Emotions

He makes me happy and he makes me sad/angry.

He makes me laugh and he makes me cry.

I hate that part.

Being in a relationship makes me emotional. It's exhausting. It's fun. But it's tiring.

I hate that part.

Skytrex Adventure and the city escapade

Successfully planned and organized a weekend trip with my bison colleagues 😎✨✨

We went to skytrex adventure in Shah Alam. all of us played the Little Adenture first (warmup hehe) and then most of us opted for the Big Thrill, and only two of us did the Extreme Challenge. It was worth the money and time i think. Had so much fun! 😁 (but arms super hurt afterwards gahh)

After exercise, went to Mohd Chan Chinese Muslim restaurant. The chef himself came out and devised a menu to our budget (RM35/pax, 10 pax). Satisfied with the taste and quantity 👍👍

Then checked in to hotel, cleaned up and rested a bit. That night we went to walk around i-city. Very touristy heheh 👽

The next day we went to Klebang for the hyped coconut shake (had to qeueu for 45 minutes! 😤). Actually planned to go to theme park or something but everyone's still recovering from skytrex lol

P/S: thanks yang for helping me on the skytrex 💖 +20pts. 

Sorry?

1. Ni apsal gossip ktrg naik balik ni? Seminggu ni je dh 4 kali tergigit bibir/lidah time makan. Cit diumpat.

2. How does he says sorry - oh let me count the ways;

Sbb dpt msg ni time psycho dh habis (read: pms) so dh trmkn hahahh

Sweets - checked

1. Pulls up car because it was raining and i was wearing a long dress. He offered, i didn't ask hehe

2. Kept looking at me when i'm driving. Often wants me to drive (we took turn).

3. Bought me food and drinks. Kalau ckp lapar, he'll find some food lol

4. Remembered most of the stuffs i talked about with him

5. Noticed and mimicked my weird talk hahaihhh

6. Didn't try to refuse when i said i want to pick up Cikna. He even said to wait first in case she's not answering because she's in the shower

7. After the long cold treatment/ my sulking last time, he even tried to make it a point to say "who? What girl? IMmediately forgot her"

8. Brought me along to meet his friends

9. Concerned. late to go lunch/ skip lunch --> he'll definitely ask why/ what's wrong. 

10. If i sulk, he'll know and mengalah.

Kawan

Hahahh yep myb rly should do it. 

Dating x2

Second consecutive saturday we went out. Last wk looking at houses. Today at home fair. Both times at persada. Both times went for lunch/dinner afterwards.

(Dunno why but when talking about him, i just have to make it in points to NOT lose track of my own mind)

1. I'm srsly happy when i'm with him. Happy and just be me, myself. Earlier today, maybe i was too self-conscious and was trying to act all datey2 i got so awkward n nervous n as a result got weird. But somehow he just kept talking and i don't even realize how or when, by the time we almost head back, i just noticed that i was back to myself and actually being happy with him without thinking anything. He's easy like that <3 you know sometimes i got conscious of not being spoilt, not too crazy, not too rough, not too demure, not too whatever. But with him, i just don't care. Sometimes i curse. Sometimes i berzikir/religious stuffs. Sometimes i get spoilt. Sometimes i whine. Often i laugh and chuckle and giggle. I even sulk hahahaihh

2. Walking through the home fair, lots of the promoters tried to get through to us by saying "first house? Want sofa/tv/kitchen/etc.?" Then when we got to coway (dunno why he was interested to listen) the coway guy even asked, "sekarang duduk asing2?" Hangguk, "ye". Pastu dia mcm buat muka nk tanya tp malu, "akak ni........ *diam x smbung tp msih nk berminat*" saje dengki budak coway tu, i kept smiling and look at him like i don't know what he's trying to get to hahahhahaha. Lama diam. Pstu dia tanya gak haihhhh ".....bakal?" Hahahh x tau nk jwb cmne. (Effie was on the phone talking to his housemate while all this happened) diam lama. Shrug+geleng 25 degrees. Rasa mcm nk jwb je "umm entahlah, cuba tanya abang ni" -_- pstu time buat credit card the chinese guy tu siap ingat i'm a housewife, so dia x offer to make me one. And even the girls pun tanya, "akak, ade credit card?" -"xde, mmg x pakai." --"x nk mintak satu dr abang tu?" ---"hahahahhh!! Tak lah" (smbung dlm hati.. I'll make a cc myself, because i can afford to and i make my own money) aiyaaa ade tokoh housewife kah??

All this, is somehow a deja vu.

Shallow Loves

I think people that changes partner too frequently has some serious issues. How could their loves develop and then die out so easily, so quickly, if it's not shallow?

Why go into a relationship, if it's not because you like him, and he likes you, and that you make each other happy? Why go into a relationship at all, if it's just for the sake of being in one?

Lagi update

Achievement unlocked: keluar berdua yg mmg planned. (Selalu sbb otw balik training)

Ranting again

To feel less shallow of how and why i don't like N very much (compared to B)

- won't rush for other people. I see that as having little consideration for others.

- since we're carpooling and using B's and my cars (her car her husband uses), it's just the usual way for her to be ready no later than us right? Also since sometimes we're late because of her, shouldn't she at least walk to the car park along with us? If it was me, i won't ask to be dropped by the front gate. Sometimes she said "is this really ok? Macam mem pulak" urghkk klo sndiri dh rasa cmtu.. Lg nk tanya haihh

- no common place courtesy. Mcm x prnh dok hostel time kt asrama/U ke? Sampah. Even smph sndiri yg berkuah tu.. Gi ltk bwh sink. Smpai berulat n basah. Tu smph sndiri. Smph yg ramai2 lg la x prnh buang ke luar. Konon perempuan habis la tu geli dgn ulat. Pinggan/pisau/etc. yg dh guna.. Cubalah biasakan basuh terus? Biar lama2 tinggal pergi itu ini.

- org tanya btul2, nk mkn ke x (refering to some food yg ade bese ktrg share2), dia ckp nk. Pstu punyalah ditinggalkan sbb dia xde transport nk g kuar mkn, x makan jugak.. Pstu mcm x paham pulak org tinggalkan mknn utk dia. Biar je ats meja. Klo ye pun kemas le msuk fridge. Hr tu dh basi nasi arab. Ingt ni rmh kmpung yg ade mak2 ke. X pndai duduk dgn org lbih kurang sebaya?? Biarlah ko budak.. Comel mmg comel. Tp lps ni stay yg 24/7 dgn laki ko.. X tau la cmne ko ni.

- compared to tidur rmh ktrg yg ade 2 org pompuan anak dara bkn sedara, kn ke lbih elok bwk husband tidur rmh mentua dia kat skudai? I mean i would understand it kalau rmh mentua dia jauh. Ni kt JB derrr. X paham.

- whatever pun. Aku serius x pndai borak dgn bdk ni haha

I feel married

So. Update on my tarik tali game as you say it. After 2-3 weeks of cold treatment, we got better. Now we're actively happily talking and texting and all that. Plus he got more serious in me. Wekk pdn muka cuak kn org stopped treating you special n g lyn org lain instead =P

 Am i doing this right? 😅

Somehow it feels different this time around. Like we both are being more honest and serious about us. Err so yeah please look forward along with me 😬

Cold

Baru faham why people say that anak bongsu ni kuat merajuk. I mean, dulu mmg la i often sulk. Tp bila dh bsr x de dh. Merajuk turns into rebels and silent protests and withdrawals. But we just call that the teenage phase right. Only recently i have this realization that i might have not changed much since little. Nak tu, x dapat? Fine, x payah. You don't like me? Fine, i'll move on. I texted you a whole lot and actually makes an effort for you and you're like that? Fantastic, i'll stop.

Seriously i can be feeezing cold when i want to.

And now at work - x dpt something je trus rasa stress haha. Org bg emel jht to me, i reply with venom. Fabulous!

Bebel kerja 1

Bila bos kpd bos kpd bos lg mnusahkan kerja drpd mnyenangkan. Puiiiiiiiii (wlopon beliau mengatakan kpd bos kpd bos "she's good - i like her" tentang aku. Tp jd kerja tensi beb

Bila team members incompetent. Itu x tau ini x tau. To dh naik2 bnyk. Just sbb yrs of exp. kamon dh naik pgkt, naik responsibility, naik scope kerja, naik gaji, kena la naik skills.

Courting noob 3

Is it normal for a guy to discuss about marriage when he's alone with a girl?

Mcm ni. Kn hr tu ade cte yg pkcik ni (F=26 years old je actually) slalu gak ckp2 psl member die kawin2 etc etc. pstu smalam berbangkit lg. sbab adik dia baru tunang weekend lepas. Pstu die smbung cte lg how his mom keeps teasing and asking him when to get married. So. How does one should respond to that?

Srsly. Ni soklan serius. As a guy, do you normally talk about these things to any of your female friends? I mean, i dont want to read too much into nothing. Is this a hint or not?

I wanted to ask this on fb but he's there........

A different kind of girls

My new housemate N is a typical girl - girl.

(Putting aside her cute physial features,)

She's the kind that prefers others doing the rough jobs for her, not wanting to get her hands dirty. She looks and acts fragile but is used to getting her ways. If i were to classify her according to the discovery insights colour wheel, she is dedinitely red-yellow. Everybody says what a good girl she is, treat her very nicely because of that, but i think she's a lot tougher than she looks. Not physically, but character-wise. A true meek and docile girl won't be as assertive as she is. So really i don't know if it's only me that realizes this or what.

The other one - B - is more like me. We're a bit more on the tough side both character-wise and physical-wise. I don't mean size-wise because both my housemates are petite.

Obviously, i get along better with B. (fyi, B and i Y are both technical people - we're engineers. N on the other hand is in finance)

Example - assembling racks. We bought a metal hanging rack each, and she directly asks us to assemble it for her, not bothering to try it herself first. I mean, i'd understand if she's with her husband, but she was with us fellow around same age young ladies. (B 25, Y 24, N 23 years old) and that's why i say she's a bit spoiled and used to getting her ways.

I'm sharp, and that's a double edge too.

I'm independent, and that's too manly for most guys.

What if i told you that being overly conscious of a woman's independence, of her intelligence, of her capability, and feeling like you have to prove your superiority just to feel manly just proves otherwise?

Like srsly courting noob 2

Are we publicly an item now?

Because i even heard some guy said to him, referring to me, "pandai ye you cari"

And he did not deny it or look displeased with the statement. And he even okayed it when trying to bring me along to an open house. So what now.

Courting noob

How do you know if you're in a relationship?

Do you have to have that declaration, or question asked,

"will you go out with me?"

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

"jom kapel/dating"

?

Or you simply just hang out and hang around each other enough (meaning a lot) until one day suddenly both of you know that you ARE in a relationship.

Right now i'm pretty sure he's not dating/courting any girls, but how do i know if he's trying to court/courting me?

I'm pretty sure he likes/enjoys spending time/hang out and around me.

Sometimes when i told him something like hey have you watched this n that, coz i'm going to the movie tonight. And he'll be like with who else, what time etc. then when he said he cannot join (i didnt explicitly ask him if he could), he also said "ye lah, pergilah.." Like giving me permission. I dont know why but sometimes i just want to make sure when i go somewhere with other guys/girls, he knows about it. Like i dont want him to hear about it from somebody else. I'm not asking for his permission though. I'm just letting him know.

Also i know that we both know that we had a scandal. People used to talk about us when we first got in. Not sure how he reacts to it.. There's no sign that shows he's denying it or dislikes it.

But some time ago i heard that he also had a scandal with this other girl. 😤 Never asked him directly about it though..

Lately he's becoming more okay with us two being seen together. Like to bazaar ramadhan or carpooling to the trainings etc. 

And he's talking about (his friends') wedding a lot lately. 

Oh well i'll just enjoy the ride.

budak pelik 3

this guy's seriously sweet.
i was rushed and had to skip lunch hour to finish work
(mak gave me some food so i don't mind eating a bit later.. don't have to go out of office for lunch)
even before he went for lunch he was like "eh you're not going for lunch? are you fasting??" in a teasing tone but changed to a concern one when i kept the serious-busy-garang face haha
and later when he came back (after lunch), he saw me still serious-busy-garang, so he lynced me instead, "x break ke? x lapar?"
(#_#)
hahahh that made me chuckle a bit (and also touched) haihh budak pelik
duduk depan2 tapi tanya guna lync

pstu boleh pulak ckp "ko ni nasib baik perempuan. kalau lelaki aku dh geletek dh.. cmni2"
*buat gaya tangan geletek org*
......
0_0
not sure patut gelak or rasa creepy

Budak Pelik 2

he's a really nice guy. i know that now.

and very attentive too. that day even myself was not sure that i was feeling kinda slow/down.. and he was like "are you ok? x payah lah buat muka tension." and cracked a few jokes to make me laugh. (ugh but he even made a poop joke T_T)

and a bigger bully/teaser than i am. i know i can be a little childish in term of teasing people, but he's just a bigger bully than i am. seriously. suka betul mengacau orang. but that's fine since at least he also wouldn't mind when i tease him back =P

and back to being very attentive. and considerate. he knows how to limit his teasing and stopped it when i started to even slightly show annoyance. even at my pretend-pout or a slight frown, he'll be like "ok2" "yelah2" hehe encik sulung memang penyabar

and a flatterer. i think he likes me wearing pretty dress/tops. this morning i got up early and dress-up a bit more than usual, and first thing in the morning when i told him i have a training later, "training ape, ambik gambar?" X'D

but the weirdest thing is how he kept mocking my thinking that i'm tall. we were talking about tall people and short people in the office, and i blubbered that one of the things i like most about living in US is that they're generally taller/ i was considered about average-height there.. so i don't feel like such a giant. and he was like "eleh macam la dia tinggi sangat." you see. guys rarely say that to me. since i'm 167cm and the average height for Malaysian men is 165 and for women 154. by stats, i am taller than about half of Malaysian male population. well i think he's a bit taller than i am, but still, i can be considered tall for a girl.

and the even weirder thing is that i actually felt insecure of my height (though i sometimes brag about it), and like it when he was mocking my height. it made me feel like, i'm not such a giant after all =')

and this morning he suddenly consulted me on a love problem.
it started out like this:
- ape pendapat ko pasal perempuan kaya/ anak orang kaya?
- biarlah dia kaya. ape isunya?
- perangai lah.. ko rasa anak org kaya ni mcm mana
- mana boleh stereotype org in general. mmg la ade anak org kaya yg kerek, tp x semua. kena la kenal perempuan tu dulu. ape isunya sekarang ni?
- x lah, kalau aku ade suka kat sorang awek ni, die anak org kaya, pstu kerja bank, orgnya baik2, alim jugak la.
- (dlm hati ='|   #$$^&**&&%$!!) ko suka, nak rapat dgn dia?
- ye, haah.
- (dlm hati X'( urghkkkkk gila direct) dia layan ko x?
- layan jugak lah. layan la aku rasa.
- (dlm hati $#%$%!!) so ape masalahnye?
- sbb die anak org kaya lah..
- (by this time dh start tawar hati) tu je? die suka ko kan..
 - err ni pasal member aku sbnrnye. die cakap takut family background x sama.. n die rasa perempuan ni terlalu baik untuk dia. ko rasa?
- (%$%#$!! ckp la awal2 psl member. cit. pheww) member ko ni baik x?
- perlu ke jadi baik?
- asalkan x jahat, boleh jaga anak orang ok la (cehh mcm terer lak cakap)
- bolehhhh jaga anak orang. x jahat mcm mne tu
- haha x jahat bukan pembunuh bersiri/ perompak..
- amboi jahat benor kawan aku smpai pmbunuh bersiri
- so skrg ni perempuan tu suka x member ko ni? dah try tanya?
- tu la masalahnya. lepas dia confess, perempuan tu pergi lala-lalala~ then lps brpe hari datang balik.
- die terkejut je kot. die x jawab ke die suka ke x? sms, call, ke depan2?
- HAHAHA depan-depan la. mana gentleman sms. x, tu yg masalah tu. tp die datang balik.
- hehe mne la tau x gentleman x ckp depan2. ntah la.. maybe sebab ko ckp die mcm alim2, maybe die mmg jnis yg x nk rapat sgt dgn lelaki kot.. member ko ni dh ready/pikir nk kawin?
- dah, die ckp nk kawin next year, dgn sape je x tau lg. hahaha mcm psiko kan
- haha kalau dh ready try je la ajak perempuan tu kawin kalau dia nak. kalau x nak, boleh move on.
- oo ade eh org mcm tu, jenis yg x nk kenal sgt sblom kawin.
- lah, kan kwn ko tu dh brpe lama kenal perempuan ni?
- 6 bulan, tp tu lah, x brpe selalu sgt jumpa/call/sms. so x tau sgt perempuan ni cm mne.
- mcm mne ape
- gila mcm ko. mcm aku. *buat muka pelik*
- HAHAHA gila mcm ko aku rasa x
- so mmg ade yg jnis nk bercinta lps kawin eh.
- sape member ko ni?
- housemate aku.
- (x nk ckp nama, nk berahsia mcm aku x tau sape housemate dia konon..) JEP?
- *sengih* haah
- HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
- hah, ketawakan orang!

selesai sesi konsultasi cinta housemate, tiba-tiba:
- ko anak orang kaya?
- *terkejut* hah??
- kaya, sederhana, biasa2?
- haha sederhana..
- ko bongsu, berapa atas ko?
- teka.
- tengok gaya.. mcm ramai.. belas-belas.. 15? (i think he was trying to be funny here, not knowing that figure is really close to the answer lol)
- lebih 1..
- ai, lebih nampak. 16?
- 14 lah
- 14?? betul ni?
- atas aku dh ramai besar2, so time aku dh x susah..

pastu sibuk tanya pasal kakak abang pulak..

dear you,
i know you have a few younger sisters and that you love and care about,
so just remember that i have 6 living older brothers, and 6 older sisters looking out for my well-being,
feeling the same thing as you would for your younger sister.
just a friendly reminder!
(in case you ever turn out to be a jerk contrary to my current interpretation)

Good Person, Good Girl

I don't think that I'm a bad person. Actually I think that I'm a pretty darn good person.
I do some charity, do my work, am a responsible young adult, an okay daughter to my parents, an okay friend to my friends, etc.
But maybe not such a good girl.

person who curses - acceptable, ok.
girl who curses - not good.

a rough/kasar person - maybe he's just like that naturally, ok.
a rough/kasar girl - not good.

But I'm seriously not a bad girl either. I'm not wild, I don't drink, I don't go clubbing, I don't sleep around. in fact, I'm keeping my chastity until I'm married. in fact, i don't easily, purposefully, intendedly touching2 with guys. in fact, i don't let guys easily, purposefully, intendedly, non-accidentally touching2 me either. see i'm kinda strict like that. so i'm not that bad right.

there's this guy who at first is like interested in me, then we became friends on FB, and you know how i'm like with my buds there.. so yeah. i think he's ruined his image of a 'good girl' me. i was -|this|- close to faking it and be all goody-goody.. but oh well nvm if he really likes me, he'll like me as me right.

*nyanyi lagu dark side by kelly clarkson*

plus i'm only 23.5yo. still not |----THAT----| desperate.